November 16, 2013

Thankful November Day 16 - Precious Moments

Day 16. Today I'm thankful for precious moments. Not the doe eyed dolls, but the roses along the path of life that smell so sweet.

November 15, 2013

Thankful November Day 15 - Outta My Head

Day 15. Today I'm thankful to the people who get me out of my own head, either with kind words or linguistic crowbar. Oh, and the occasional inspirational link doesn't hurt.

November 14, 2013

Thankful November Day 14 - First World Problems

Day 14. Today I am thankful that, in my world, I don't have to worry about having acid thrown on me to avenge some kind of family honor, needing someone to accompany me should I want to leave the house, and the freedom to drive and vote.

It's easy to lose sight of these things and focus on the small wrongs like your restaurant serving the "wrong" kind of soda, or the person who crept over into your lane so far that you had to lean on the horn. I don't want to forget all that I do have in light of all that I "don't". I'm grateful to have first world problems.

November 13, 2013

Thankful November Day 13 - Yogi

Day 13. Today I am thankful to all of those who have helped me find my voice. Whether I was told that if they didn't think I was so amazing, they'd throttle me right then and there, or to stop apologizing so much, these were things I needed hear. For my yogis, I am grateful.

November 12, 2013

Thankful November Day 12 - One Off

Day 12. Today I'm thankful for having been a "one-off" for reasons beyond my control from a very early age. I was probably the only adopted kid and I know I was the only Jew in my elementary school. Being different from a young age made it easier to shrug off convention and follow my own path as an adult, and for that I'm thankful.

November 11, 2013

The Stroke of Douche O'Clock

Thankful November has me traveling back in time a bit.  It’s true, the saying that you remember events more than you do material things.  Generally, I think that statement is supposed to convince you to take that vacation over buying a new 3D tv.  You know, make good memories.  That’s not always the case though.  How often have we all done something, or had something happen that we’ve played back over and over in our heads?  This is one such memory.

I was a freshman in college at a school literally halfway across the country.  The love of my short life had just dumped me, fearing that the distance was going to be too great.  (I can’t blame him.  It was the right thing to do, even though I was devastated at the time.)  I was far from home, and lost in my new environment.  If I had to hazard a guess, I would say that I was also slipping into my first bout of real, clinical depression.  

Thankful November Day 10 - College Dichotomy

Day 10. I am thankful for my college experience. Not so much the lesbian experimentation and waking up in someone else's bathtub that others may hazily remember. I'm talking about how I spent my first two years at Dickinson, but graduated from UNL.

My two years at Dickinson taught me that I could hold my own academically. I was challenged and flourished in an accelerated environment. I met wonderful people, some of whom I credit to my self development to this day. When depression drove me to contemplate self harm in my sophomore year, I decided maybe being closer to home and all things familiar might help. So, I transferred to UNL.

My education in Lincoln was completely different, but just as important. Where in Pennsylvania I was isolated to nurture my mind, in Lincoln I was able to learn about the world. I worked 30+ hours a week, lived on my own off campus, and had a live in boyfriend. The academic requirements were undoubtedly less stringent than Dickinson, but the life lessons were no less valuable. If a college education is supposed to be well rounded, then I think I was lucky enough to have gotten one.

November 9, 2013

Thankful November Day 9 - Mediocrity

Day 9: Today I am thankful to neither be the smartest, or the least intelligent in my social circle. Being somewhere along the hump of the bell curve allows me to both continue learning from my peers and to fulfill my need to feel useful when offering perspective to those who ask for it. I also hope I never find myself convinced that I am the greatest or the best at anything because I will have missed the mark.

There are endless lessons to learn and as many different truths as there are stars in the sky. To lose track of that is to lie to oneself. I am grateful for this strange sort of mediocrity to allow me to continue to evolve and grow.

November 8, 2013

Thankful November Day 8 - Headache Toolkit

In honor of fall, aka pressure change season, day 8 of Thankful November is dedicated to my headache toolkit.  My occasional world of hurt would be ever so much larger without blackout curtains, ice packs, pressure point therapy devices, and prescription medications to chase away the bees in my head and the lightening in my nerves. I am thankful for the research into what causes and how to relieve migraine pain.  Without it, I never would have discovered some of my trigger foods and activities in my early 20s.  Without my TENS unit, I wouldn't be able to stave off an attack until I could devote the time to suffering through it.  While these aren't bulletproof methods, they make life a little easier to live, and for that I'm grateful.

November 7, 2013

Thankful November Day 7 - Nature v Nurture

You're going to want to write this down and point to it often in the future. Today, day seven, I'm thankful to find myself emulating my parents.

I know. I know. Those of you who have seen me stomp around the room with steam coming out of my ears, muttering under my breath, and yelling the occasional "Oooooh! That WOMAN!" might find this hard to believe.  Certainly, sometimes her execution might have missed the mark and left us with bloody psyches after a row.  That doesn't change the fact that I'm glad to have been exposed to my mom's spitfire personality and junk yard dog, no nonsense, pull up your panties and get it done attitude. Over time, I've grown to be more and more like that myself.

I'm also thankful for my dad's middle of the road congeniality. As a kid, we joked about calling him Mister Maybe. He's played mediator between the two forces of nature under his umbrella for more than three and a half decades. I don't envy his job, but I appreciate it all the same. I'm glad to see some of his Switzerland-like attitudes incorporated into my own personality.

First, do no harm. Second, do not cross the line first. Third, should your own borders be breached, return fire with tactical precision and anime-esque firepower. That's the combination that Nurture has given me. Thank you, mom and dad.

November 6, 2013

Thankful November Day 6 - Modern Medicine

Day six. I am thankful for modern medicine. Both beautiful and brutal, without it I could not be a functioning member of society.

November 5, 2013

Thankful November Day 5 - Security

Day five. Today I am thankful for security. Security in my home, in my livelihood, and in who I am. Because I can and do feel safe, it allows me the opportunity to chase rainbows (but not waterfalls) and dream big. 

November 4, 2013

Thankful November Day 4 - Second Chances

Day 4 - Today I'm thankful for second chances and the option to learn lessons the hard way. Part of life is being able to grow with experiences. Some of us learn faster than others. For those of us who need a brick to the noggin in order to get the point, I'm grateful that mulligans exist.

November 3, 2013

Thankful November Day 3 - Domesticated Animals

Today, I am thankful for domesticated animals. I have been lucky to have shared my life, my home, and my heart with many animals over the years. From them I have learned patience, responsibility, and dependability. They have shown me what unconditional love is, and taught me that sometimes, you *do* have to touch the icky stuff, and if I want something, it's ok to ask for it. I've been reminded how to play what it feels like when someone is glad to see you, what it's like to have to think about another creature over yourself, and that sometimes, all you need is a good butt snuggle or head boop to make the world right again.

November 2, 2013

Thankful November Day 2 - Curiosity

During my leisure hours, I like to spend my time watching some sort of documentary or trying to find which book in which I left my nose.  I am not capable of much of what I learn about, but I'm thankful to the knowledge, even if it's passive.  I'm thankful for curiosity and how it has shaped mankind into who we are today.

November 1, 2013

Thankful November - Intro

My favorite social media site today reminded me that it's both No Shave November, and Thankful November.  While I might be a little absent minded about shaving at times, I don't think I want to earn Yeti Legs as a nickname.  I won't be participating in NSN.  However, I think coming up with a daily reason to be thankful is a fantastic idea, and one I'd like to attempt.