OK, I promise that I won't bang this drum too much. But, I just came to the realization last night that since putting in my 2 weeks notice, my body hurts less. I'm not talking just a little. I'm talking I'm no longer hunched over for the first 10 minutes after getting out of bed, and I got a joint to release just today that I've been fighting with for almost a year. I wasn't even trying for it either. I was merely slouching in the chair, and *pop*. Suddenly, I had more range of motion. That made me sit up and think.
My back was a different kind of sore last night. The pain was more down the center rather than the locked up knot in my hip and glute. Last I remember, my physical therapist was happy that the pain had shifted to this. It was progress. Little did I know that I'd slowly clenched up to the point where my entire hip, glute, and even upper thigh was a painful torrent of tension. It was so nasty that it would only listen to an elbow massage for about half an hour before clamping right up again. (As a note, I think it would have been hilarious to be the subject of a home invasion while getting one of those massages from Thunderhead. It would have sent the thieves running to burst in and see what appeared to be me taking an elbow/arm up the ass, growling in pain, and saying "More. Yeah, I can feel it loosening up.")
It's amazing what time and stress does to a person. I mean you never think of flesh in terms of doing what carbon does; it gives us diamonds through slow application of heat and pressure.
I know I've been in a good mood recently. Overjoyed, to be honest. This is the crowning achievement in a 3 year journey. I think I have a right to toot a small horn. I just had no idea that I'd reached the point where my body and my health was being so negatively affected. I understand I had the anxiety/nausea thing. I knew that was a physical manifestation, but I never expected the pain be a factor, much less clear up so soon. I gave my official notice Friday. Here it is only Wednesday, and the pain I've had for years is mostly gone. Stress is a slow devil; the invisible thumbscrews for your body. I'm glad this devil listened when I said "Get thee behind me!".